Trauma creates a unique response called "Splitting" where we separate our consciousness our awareness from the part of us we deem abused or guilty depending on the event. It is a rather distressing survival mechanism because we do this "splitting" off into segments unconsciously and it costs us because it's something that doesn't correct on it's own. No, we have to be aware we do this and we have to wrestle our selves back into wholeness. Not easy and impossible without assistance and if you feel like maybe you do this you should get help. One of the first clues is loss of time. We wake up in some cases years later going what have I just been doing? Often we go unassisted and we live entire lifetimes with little or no recollection of events past and it's tragic because awareness comes at the very end, stress filled.
Trauma, abuse anything we deem cataclysmic will set us apart will "split" us.
So if you suspect this is you get help. It is common and easily addressed.
Plus that feeling of "did I do something or say something wrong"? goes away.
We catch up with ourselves we no longer fear our actions.
Everyone deserves to be reunited, everyone deserves to feel safe.