In tennis it is important to be in the best or optimum place with our footwork in order to connect with the ball and to get there it is recommended to take stutter steps. It is something to watch Nadal who is the best at these mini steps. I am medium good at this. I have a tendency to lope to the ball and often over run it, less graceful but like a young deer.
In my progress as an Earthling I notice I stutter through my understanding about life in general. I am stunned by how little we know and how attached to what we know we are. There is always room for more. I was and am still upset that lots of people live better then I do, life is easier, they have grace, understanding and ease.
I have a hard time with the basics, seriously. It scares me sometimes and I wonder will I fail and am I already failed, shouldn't I be doing so much more?
Yesterday, I read a thank you from one of the people who read these "notes". Touched I was struck by how easy the simple gesture of sharing ones path is, it's love.
How it brings me so much personally. I feel alive and part of Earth literally, knowing some one has found benefit here.
I guess today I need to be patient and forgive myself for being such a beginner. I am a beginner in every way. Forgive myself for being unpolished with things like grace and ease.
There is no rush and I will never get there... yes I will have a rich glorious often fun time journeying toward this place and that is the point!
So I will stutter step to get into position to hit the ball (metaphorically) of my life.
Remembering that there is no there , there...