Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Druggie people

Drug test her, get her to submit to a big fat urine test and we will know in a couple of hours if the blonde heiress was doing blow. Poor thing so dumb is she being advised by her just as stupid family members. Her family rooting her on as she lies. No wonder the starlet thinks she can keep getting away with being drug busted. She does keep getting away with it globally or the other reality starlet whose main claim to fame is her gigantic ass and pretty face (she is pretty)...I swear media is powerful and here I am discussing these manufatcured role models of our youth obbessesd society. Women whose main achievement in life is going to Vegas to open a new disco. Maybe I am jealous in my day we partied and didn't get paid for it. Okay maybe the just fresh out of rehab and jail movie starlet has done some fine acting, okay she is talented, I am a fan.
Not so much the N-word using dodo head drug addict heiress. Drug test the heiress, yes. She is suspiciously skinny, scary, stupid, a bitch who needs to stand up and be a real role model. Drugs are done by the velvet rope crowd by the elite model/ party girls how else do they keep those heroin chic physiques. In fact I suspect that if every society bitch young and very old, here and in Europe were drug tested we'd learn everything we needed to learn about legal and illegal pharmacopia.

The world is full of liars.

Magazines, the media revere idolize the druggiest ones as ideal role models for all of us. The strung out, and yes the very beautiful(according to THAT ideal) the full of BS babies...all looking for love. Test the heiress so we can escape hearing her pathetic lies. Off with their heads as they fake eat cake. Ha! I strike the first blow...blow?

Monday, August 30, 2010


Maybe if we dissect the issue and stop complaining about it and start educating people the general community of media savants will get it and start to be less afraid and more uncharacteristically braver. I think taking the cranky route hasn’t worked. No instead I think it’s time to take the peaceful route and educate ‘them” by gently explaining how we of color work, and how important it is to ease America into understanding each and every one of us from a clever perspective and how interesting and satisfying it is to watch a show about say an East Indian family and their trials then another cop show starring another fashion model turned sleuth. You Hollywood and the rest of America who are not ethnic don’t grasp the concept that we in the ethnic community want you to grasp. We are a diverse group of folks within our community. You have the ghetto people who have rather thick southern based accents, maybe less education. You have the middle income with less thick accents and more education. You have the upper class (minority within a minority) with even less ghetto root-age but maybe an accent that is “put on” to mix in and seem real or "down". Then you have the huge diverse “mixed “group of us who again come from various social economic spheres. You see we don’t come in just one color we come in an infinite mix of fascinating worthy hues both internally and externally. I know the main reason why media isn’t more diverse. Simple…they who are in power don’t want to share the candy. They want to continue to rehash to regurgitate what they know hoping we as audience and consumers will not mind. Yet we mind and my brethren who are smart, urban and truly integrated and non ethnic mind. Television today is like eating mashed potatoes every meal; it is dull. There is one show coming by JJ Abrams with Boris the gorgeous Kojo starring (forgive the spelling) about a married CIA couple that has the realism of a female President in office today; not happened yet! They are beautiful and dangerous an African American Mr. and Mrs. Smith. My fingers are crossed and when that tanks we will get blamed for being unmarketable. I truly hope the show sails to huge ratings my fingers and toes are crossed. Television breaks rules constantly they are painful sad rules; one being youth obsession. I recently learned that the young are craving the not so young. This being that experience is the best aphrodisiac. The Emmys were boring after my friend Michelle didn’t win. I stopped watching it. The sea of white faces depresses me every awards show. The Oscars are no better. I still think we need to stop watching all media completely until they get smarter. It’s time.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

There's a storm 'a' coming...

Here is an article I ran into today in a Australian paper;

Solar Sun Storm

Sun ramping up for Solar Max
First Max event since mid-80s
US studies effects of 'digital bomb'
ISS search for dark matter, anti-universe
AFTER 10 years of comparative slumber, the sun is waking up - and it's got astronomers on full alert.

This week several US media outlets reported that NASA was warning the massive flare that caused spectacular light shows on Earth earlier this month was just a precursor to a massive solar storm building that had the potential to wipe out the entire planet's power grid.

NASA has since rebutted those reports, saying it could come "100 years away or just 100 days", but an Australian astronomer says the space community is betting on the sooner scenario rather than the latter.

Despite its rebuttal, NASA's been watching out for this storm since 2006 and reports from the US this week claim the storms could hit on that most Hollywood of disaster dates - 2012.

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Similar storms back in 1859 and 1921 caused worldwide chaos, wiping out telegraph wires on a massive scale.

The 2012 storm has the potential to be even more disruptive.

"The general consensus among general astronomers (and certainly solar astronomers) is that this coming Solar maximum (2012 but possibly later into 2013) will be the most violent in 100 years," astronomy lecturer and columnist Dave Reneke said.

"A bold statement and one taken seriously by those it will affect most, namely airline companies, communications companies and anyone working with modern GPS systems.

"They can even trip circuit breakers and knock out orbiting satellites, as has already been done this year."

Regardless, the point astronomers are making is it doesn't matter if the next Solar Max isn't the worst in history, or even as bad as the 1859 storms.

It's the fact that there hasn't been one since the mid-80s. Commodore had just launched the Amiga and the only digital storm making the news was Tetris.

No one really knows what effect the 2012-2013 Solar Max will have on today's digital-reliant society.

Dr Richard Fisher, director of NASA’s Heliophysics division, told Mr Reneke the super storm would hit like "a bolt of lightning”, causing catastrophic consequences for the world’s health, emergency services and national security unless precautions are taken.

US government officials earlier this year took part in a "tabletop exercise" in Boulder, Colorado, to map out what might happen if the Earth was hit with a storm as intense as the 1859 and 1921 storms.

The 1859 storm was of a similar size to that predicted by NASA to hit within the next three years – one of decreased activity, but more powerful eruptions.

NASA said that a recent report by the National Academy of Sciences found that if a similar storm occurred today, it could cause “$1 to 2 trillion in damages to society's high-tech infrastructure and require four to 10 years for complete recovery”.

Staff at the Space Weather Prediction Center in Colorado, which hosted the exercise, said with our reliance on satellite technology, such an event could hit the Earth with the magnitude of a global hurricane or earthquake.

The reason for the concern comes as the sun enters a phase known as Solar Cycle 24.

All the alarming news building around the event is being fuelled by two things.

The first is a book by disaster expert Lawrence E. Joseph, Guilty of Apocalypse: The Case Against 2012, in which he claims the "Hurricane Katrina for the Earth" may cause unprecedented planetwide upheaval.

The second is a theory that claims sunspots travel through the sun on a "conveyor belt" similar to the Great Ocean Conveyor Belt which controls weather on Earth.

The belt carries magnetic fields through the sun. When they hit the surface, they explode as sunspots.

Weakened, they then travel back through the sun's core to recharge.

It all happens on a rough 40-50-year cycle, according to solar physicist David Hathaway of the National Space Science and Technology Center in the US.

He says when the belt speeds up, lots of magnetic fields are collected, which points to more intense future activity.

"The belt was turning fast in 1986-1996," Prof Hathaway said.

"Old magnetic fields swept up then should reappear as big sunspots in 2010-2011."

Most experts agree, although those who put the date of Solar Max in 2012 are getting the most press.

They claim satellites will be aged by 50 years, rendering GPS even more useless than ever, and the blast will have the equivalent energy of 100 million hydrogen bombs.

“We know it is coming but we don’t know how bad it is going to be,” Dr Fisher told Mr Reneke in the most recent issue of Australasian Science.

“Systems will just not work. The flares change the magnetic field on the Earth and it’s rapid, just like a lightning bolt.

"That’s the solar effect.”
Read more: http://www.news.com.au/technology/sun-storm-to-hit-with-force-of-100-bombs/story-e6frfro0-1225909999465#ixzz0y1CkgwQx

The good news? I think all of us need to get busy having more fun and enjoying life fully because if indeed the Mayans are right or these Solar storm Scientists then we don't have much time to live as we do today. Oh sure some of us will be able to maintain status quo...others not so much.
I like it makes us enjoy each moment and not take life for granted.

Better get busy.

Friday, August 27, 2010

Energy is the "thing"...

Energy is the thing...in everything that matters. I can walk through a town or neighborhood and tell immediately if it is happy or depressed and or violent. Oh sure it's easy to tell when one is in a bad 'hood' by the derelict spaces and clutter. It is also easy to sense when one is in a prosperous place with happier people and fun, organic, healthy, activites are predominant. Yet most of us don't want to be self responsible. Ok I will speak for myself. I will see (sometimes) how I will ignore my life and things in it because I don't want to feel pain or be reminded of how I am not doing well in any one aspect. I will ignore something until it bites me in the ass and I yelp. Only to be reminded that it was all me that ignored the signs.

Okay I am being weird and unclear. The topic is energy and how
we are of it and we make it and how we spread it around. It is so forceful that it can infect if it isn't grounded and made with love we can infect a space, a business (negatively) by our energetic fear. This fear is a drag it seems to almost ruin and rule things unless we fight it and it is made to be under control. Call me crazy but I think the littlest details can reflect the bigger energetic force field.

Dirt and lint and broken or chipped things can hurt us. I guess and I hate to say this; but fat, if we are fat it can impact how we are seen in a positive light. I hate to be a fat phobe being someone who is constantly battling my own fattiness. UGH...

Energy, so if we can pause a moment, dissect our existence and maybe isolate and identify where we are energetically slack I think it can greatly improve our lives.

I even think if we are fearful about being anything (a failure, unloved, sick,or left behind)we create that very thing....by the energy of FEAR.

See the connection?

Tuesday, August 24, 2010


Recently I stayed awake later than usual and watched a documentary about steroid use. It was fascinating and insightful and it convinced me that as usual we need to go by a case by case example whether the drugs are in correct use etc…my BF is convinced it needs to stay out of sports and that it taints the games. I say it changes the games and there should be a special juiced up section of the games (any) where the “roided” up athletes compete. He says no it would ruin it. I disagree. I know for one thing the same prosecutor is coming after Lance Armstrong soon and that he has the goods to ‘out” him for using steroids” and that the team he was on has stepped up and confessed. This is the guy who brought down Barry Bonds and Roger Clemens. I also have met and know people with HIV who are thriving on steroids who have changed their body composition. I think many actors are on them famous guys and gals who seem to always have booming muscles and yet when you look deeply at their physiques it’s obvious they have some help. I won’t name names but there is one actor I was looking at this morning who yet again has his shirt off who I am certain uses drugs…oh sure he works out all day and is active but I sense it doesn’t hurt to get a little help now and again. I once had a spin instructor who was female who was as ripped as a dude and I would look at her body jealous that she could manufacture that much muscle now I know better. She was juicing. In fact look around at the best bodies in the media and they are getting help. Which is my point if it were not so stigmatized we would all be told willingly who was doing what, when , instead we who lug around our never ripped carcasses have to feel like failures only to find out our prime example of fitness use drugs. It’s annoying and really frustrating and unfair. Who cares if someone wants to enhance their bodies with steroids especially if they are adults? I just want to know officially that they are doing it…I think we all deserve some disclosure

Monday, August 16, 2010

Fine print

Fine print is evil it was invented for the parasitic to feed on those of us (me) who never read the fine print. Naturally lazy I rush over large print let alone fine print. Bad habit that and it will end up costing me everything….I bet. So I have to slow down and digest the fine print starting today. Contracts everywhere and people wonder why I left face book and refuse to join anymore of these networks. I feel that they will cost us just read the fine print. Recently I was charged a lot of money for a bunch of magazine I consciously did not order. My bank thankfully chased the vendor and we canceled everything including having to close the account. I am not impressed with how fast and sleazy these companies have become. It seems anyone can be signed into a program that will attach to your credit card and be completely unaware. It is fine print so if you see offers for anything free or trial basis know there is fine print that will charge you eventually down the road. In fact it is guaranteed that you will be dinged a huge amount and the only way to stop charges in the future is to kill the account completely. Fascinating how vulnerable we are. Again fine print is a bugaboo a big monster that will get us. Okay, I may be blowing fine print into a bigger issue then it is for most and some of you relish reading it, I know. It makes me think of rain man the ability to study with interest the minutia of various contracts and special offers. I am lazy though I am a big person (in my head) I like grand sweeping events and things and large font and big print. I am messy and yet I do have order in my life. I just don’t take the time to read the small print the stuff that matters and everything at the bottom of a contract is “the deal” is the matter. So like with eating slow…it is good for us to digest and carefully read the fine print of life; metaphorically too.

Thursday, August 12, 2010


Good morning…yesterday I was asked to share a tale a story about being a mother to my son Morgan. When he was seven weeks old he was diagnosed with hydrocephalus (water on the brain) he had an obstruction in his lower right ventricle, the well where spinal fluid is made. We have four of these magnificent areas and one of his was blocked.. So it was decided that at seven weeks he needed to be shunted immediately. I was 21 years old and new to being a mom and very worried and scared but also at the critical moment in my life I was grateful that I had built unbeknownst to me a solid spiritual foundation based more on my own intuition and faith in life and nature then say man or a God. The lovely doctors were generous in telling me that my son would be horribly disabled and unable to do the simplest things because in their experience this is how it went, water on the brain? Well that meant a long list of issues. In my experience I knew it was up to me and Morgan whether we would make it out of there alive and whole and healthy. You see I sat on the bed in the hospital and I meditated on my choices and I knew there was an entire universe of choices for me. I could succumb to the opinion of the trained staff in the hospital and believe everything they said because they were experts or I could feel into it and hold the child and allow him to tell me through his energy and light what needed to be done and how it would go. I needed as his mother to hold him in his wholeness allowing the staff to do their jobs but never for once letting their fears or opinion sway me off course. I felt at 21 that it was my job to see him as he truly was whole and healthy and strong and I did. I would listen quietly as they explained what would happen after the operations and how he would never be able to this or that or I can’t even remember the horrible list anymore. I would nod and listen and think as each word was spoken “not him” “not this time” I really knew he was different and that his story wasn’t disability but Morgan’s story was healthy wholeness. I decided that we would never be able to tell that he was shunted; twice in fact he has two. Some of my family were frightened and fought with me as I disagreed with the medication protocol. I knew enough that I could question a lot of the things done in the hospital to my little new born. I was diligent in keeping tests to a minimum and keeping stress out of the room and allowing him to heal. I was fierce in this. It wasn’t about me or my popularity it was about my child healing with love and care and given a chance I would have had him out of there sooner but as it was I was strong enough to sleep sitting up in chairs or on the floor for the three weeks he was in the hospital…I knew to never leave him alone. We had 6 episodes through different stages of his growing up where he almost left us and we are still not out of the woods but today he is an adult, married, working and living a normal healthy life. Able to do most things and no one ever knows that he has a shunt. I know that for me as his mother as a young girl when my child was in crisis I saw that I had a choice. I saw that I could succumb to opinion or I could hold him in wholeness, simple. I say this not negating expertise but knowing that inside expertise is a huge unknown. I grabbed that space and made it ours made it the place where possibilities could occur. I think in every aspect of life we have that room that universe of potential that most educated experts can’t control or know about. Some say it’s miraculous I say it’s less miracle and more of a normal state of being. If we blindly accept everything the “experts” tell us as gospel instead of feeling inside our own hearts it’s no wonder we have grief and tragedy. On the other hand I say listen and be still and the answers come and sometimes it is to be feeble and disabled…and sometimes it is not. In our case it was wholeness and health against the odds. Amen.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Slave Quarters and Mad Men

First of all thank you everyone who is missing my presence on FB . I send love although I must confess I don’t miss it as far as its time suck but I do like the convenience of knowing everything about everyone. Not coming back to it though it feels amazing to rebel against 500 million users. It does creep me out I feel as if I am being herded into a matrix that could at a moment’s notice turn sinister. Last night I dreamt about two different groups of people one was from Israel and the other a Muslim mix each was seemingly peaceful together they shared an area that was neutral. In this dream while one group (they didn’t integrate) was busy watching a show being performed the other was preparing to slaughter them as they left the venue. So in my dream was a tension. Word reached the group inside the theater and they waited. While the ambushing group waited everyone was forced to think about their stance. Each group was holding a hard line and they had to think about it before any action occurred. I woke up before the battle or lack thereof happened. I hope it never happened. I liked the standoff and feel it represents something, maybe how silly each of our so called beliefs is when it separates us from each other, maybe. Meanwhile I woke up and read about plantations in the south and how the owners are whitewashing the history of slaves in order to make their property less malevolent and evil and or soiled by historical rape and brutality. Which is like saying Nazi Germany was a paradise for Jews, which we all know (some) that it was the opposite, it was murder? So there it is the south wants to say it was a peaceful time one that was benevolent to persons of color. More insult to unspeakable injury. I think we are foolish and entering dangerous territory when we allow anyone to forget or white wash behaviors. I don’t support continuous torturous memory but I think try and present history as close to truth as possible. Because for the future generations it is important NOT to repeat the crimes! I confess I cannot watch the show “Madmen” because I know the sixties were unkind to my people that we had to march and fight for basic rights. I get why people are fascinated by the clothes and the martini lunches and the cigarette smoking all I see is lack of integration. I feel oppression which I don’t ever want glamorized and I think no matter how hard Hollywood tries that show is intrinsically wrong and won’t be a big hit. Why? Because if it gave equal time to what was also going on during those martini lunches and showed how out of whack it was in the late fifties early 60’s it would be fitting and it would be cautionary. The show doesn’t do this instead it focuses on the lives of the privileged and it glamorizing (yet again) a darker more disturbing period. I think this insensitive. We are desensitized to each other and the world and it is expensive and it is dangerous. That hurts.

Thursday, August 5, 2010

The coolest thing

The coolest and yet disturbing thing has happened. I have had multiple requests to rejoin Facebook. Now I am thrilled and touched that my humble presence has meant so much to a few, but nonetheless, I am thrilled to have regained so much free time which has been filled with other events and duties. I do miss the global community and how connected I felt but I don’t miss the concept the EVERYTHING is sold to a third and fourth party for their profit and it is. Doesn’t that just give you the willies? It does me…meanwhile I have loved the freed up time and have been accomplishing much. Still I get the pain the lack of silliness and maybe not so silly threads that would occur on my page it was at time rather thrilling, informative and touching. I must be strong though and build a site where if people want can come and share and we can do the thing one does when we are connected, connect.
Life is discovery and I have discovered that we love each other as a rule…that’s heartening.