Ha...what a delight my rest 'note" brought more responses then I have had in a long while. I am adjusted to the quiet mind you. At first I was eager to have more responses (like we had at FB) then it felt forced. Wow, that forced feeling that seems to be a constant theme for me. The maintaining balance and clarity and sitting with what is with out too much drama. I am facing so many wild inner struggles at the moment and some of my issues are as old as the hills. Today is a bit different since my urge to destroy what is good is lessened. Thank Goddess. Still it isn't easy being a "being" and I struggle as much as the next guy to keep within what I call "Cosmic flow". That energetic place where we are carried, guided and loved and protected. If I step outside integrity I get in trouble. I am one of those people who get instant retribution, it's pretty interesting and keeps me honest. One night after a dinner party. I was walking back to the car and the sidewalk was teaming with roach's. I was wearing my new favorite sandals. For some weird primal reason I started to smash the bugs with my wooden sandals. Killing quite a few it was huge carnage for the roaches. Finally getting back to the car we drove off. A few minutes later as we were speeding down the highway. I smell a horrid smell and it is coming from my foot. I take off my right shoe it is covered in dog crap. Yup...after smashing those roaches I had stepped into crap. Out the window went my new shoe. It was so upsetting since I had just gotten the shoes that day. Killing those insects was the problem. In my life this is how it goes so I am hesitant about being out of integrity. It is far better for me to be within...to be clear, honest and good. Yet, It's not like I am not temped. I am often and it's so hard to be good. Even at my age gorgeous temptations abound. Yikes.
No, I prefer to be within the circle within protection I cannot lie...this is the better spot for me.
For you too.