My father is very upset he missed the show yesterday and I am feeling for him. He is a space cadet and I am sorry we couldn't have him but I adored the outcome. You know one of my primal fears as a kid and an adult is being dumped or deserted and having people know that I have been dumped and or deserted. It is as if that is a bad thing,
Yesterday, I actually got to experience the truth of it, it is NOT a bad thing! You don't die of embarrassment, the sky doesn't swallow you up and I didn't feel less than in any way, in fact I felt like my angel wings grew an inch longer. Okay, I exaggerate a 1/2 inch is more like it. It is a wondrous event surviving and proving something false. It heals. Oh sure there was a moment of sadness attached to Father not showing up (again) but nothing like the Little self would have us believe. we can face those fears I promise even in a public form.
Knowing my Dad and how he rolls I pretty much felt/feel it was a good chance he was gonna flake. When he did I was armed with a spectacular sub (TB) and then my sister who I have to say isn't normally so open and frank publicly stepped up and filled in. I found the discourse to be deep, frank and interesting and less Hollywood and more real. I was moved and I was in it. At times I forgot I was on air and that could be bad maybe, yet it felt so intimate. I like that personally I want to feel like I know the person who is interviewing.
Today someone who is technical laughed at the dead moment ...I was on a cell and I had to take the call so there was dead air. Tony Bunn filled it by saying "we are still on the air folks"...LOL.. So good and funny and obviously NOT polished.
I am certain the depth of our discussion about my father will impact him positively by letting him hear what the effects of his actions are and how they impact us without the sting of accusations and blame.
There is nothing better. I just hope he takes the time to listen. It's a long show but pretty exciting no stone unturned.
No pun intended...