Heart

I fall in love everyday…walking, running, playing tennis, with my dogs in the woods something will get my heart pumping with joy and love and it’s there done, LOVE. What is interesting is my actual relationship, it’s not perfect by any means and gawd knows I have no idea truly how to be in a relationship. Yet I must say it is my guru, it is my teacher and I am on my knees in humility at the feet of “us”. I have no conscious idea how to sustain or maintain and be in a relationship but I see that I am in them more then not and I wonder? What is this thing and is it love? Oh I had a good 7 years of being with myself and I loved it until I didn’t. I am itching now for change and not sure if it is honest and what is best.
I adore this dance, life because it’s so messy. It is not neat and tidy. Life for me is like my hair it’s tangled and wild. So it is that I fall in Love a lot. I can see potential and life affirming beauty in every one I meet. I think there is an abundance of love and partners in life and it isn’t a matter of “there are no good men” I hear that refrain a lot from my single girl and guy friends and I don’t share this as truth because my experience is there is nothing but hunky fabulous glorious willing souls dying to be plucked into your arms. You say no, I say yes! I notice though that the catch the resistance is just that resistance. Imagine that you are driving a car down the road and you are reading a book at the same time and painting your nails too. Impossible? You bet well we go about love the same way. We don’t show up fully and when we do show up we can’t see who is in front of us and when we do see them we want to apply paint to change them. So in reality we are not present so no wonder no one sees who is appearing. Crazy and soooooo simple, and YET obviously difficult to change otherwise we would be a world of abundance in love. Yet we are a world abundant in LOVE. I have met scores of loveable people who are scrumptious recently literally gorgeous single beings. Some have hooked up and others are looking. I am convinced if we sat down and stripped away the plans and ideas got out of the way of our minds mess and our ego’s demands we would be delighted at the instant appearance of “the one”. Let’s face it everyone we meet is the one because they are. It is all one force anyway. So get off your ideas, shelf the concepts and open up your eyes to the gorgeousness and abundance of love, right there in front of you now. And please just say YES, THANK YOU!