Yesterday I was lucky enough to go to a lecture in Hollywood of a very famous speaker (Marianne Williamson) she spoke on relationship bringing up the important aspect of soul and how vital it is to honor the souls we meet and to be careful to withhold harsh judgement when measuring whether we are compatible and what the richness of our seeming incapability may bring to us. So I welcomed hearing this because I haven't the same problems with love as a rule my issues of unforgivingness affect my work, my career. I tend to hold myself back and judge rather harshly the men and women who run Hollywood. I have an innate distrust and dislike for the establishment as toxic and filled with one idea cliquish dopes. This hasn't served me and no matter how many people are this way there are some who are not who are living in the same sphere as me...trying to be a real human being with integrity.
So my relationship gap is career forgiveness. Anyway I appreciated being reminded of the places I can relax into and forgive. One fascinating part of the evening was her Q & A section which I thought was out of control( she was not in charge) It annoyed me that she suggested that we give everything up to prayer. I found it deeply annoying maybe dangerous since my root training is either Path work or The work both strong psychologically based studies with fantastic tools to help deconstruct the so called truths we hold, it isn't acceptable to stay in our "story" with these tools we can see where we are stuck in "truth" and not in "love". So last night everything was given up to Prayer to the Divine. Now everything emanates from source first or so it appears thus far and yet my thinking and my commitment to my "story" is the key to my unhappiness or happiness. Meaning Prayer is key but also my mental clarity and my mental health. Last night three people unravelled and had thick with blame issues and ultimately MW gave it up to God. Which is good yet that didn't change their stories...now maybe I am not allowed to see the change because "story " is so personal. Yet I was alarmed by what I feel is half baked wisdom. To delve into the divine and open up hearts and souls and then allow the baring of issues in public and then for her to always suggest to them to say pray and it will all be forgiven? It just offended me to no end. I feel it is unsafe and unfinished. First of all there is no way, no how that we get everything right. It's impossible that we remember every detail of everything. So how trustworthy is our recall? it is not...
So to say lets give it up to prayer is lame and I was shocked at how bad and uncool and amateurish it all felt. Oh boy here I go. Now I need a ministry and if I had one I would be cautious in opening hearts and souls and I would use the work tool the 4 questions and the turn arounds. There would not be anyone allowed to leave who wasn't able to do it, if they were in "the hot seat"...working.
I want Marianne to get better tools to help facilitate people who are in their stories...I want her lovely gospel to have ballast and better tools of deconstruction.
I understand the immense power of prayer yet it must be coupled with the work, the turn arounds because we can't get to the core, the love if we still think "they" are wrong or that we are innocent.