Monday, November 8, 2010

Okay, call me crazy...

Okay call me crazy…no I will call me crazy. CRAZY, I had so much fun at Oprah this week. It was a surprise and a blast to see everyone. Especially Willard and Akosua, oh and honestly Whoopie was wonderful too…must get her details so I can visit her again in NYC. Something monumental occurred to me. Imagine being a normal person with an okay career in broadcast than suddenly thrust upon the world stage and given a platform to reach millions everyday for 25 plus years, it will it has to change you. The influx of energy is enormous and I can’t imagine how difficult it is to get accustomed to the life style change there is no operating manual. It never occurred to me to look at her Oprah this way. I have held her separate from my heart because I felt her creepiness as petty and vile. When I look at my inner judgment toward her I see perfectly that I was all of those things to her as well, in equal parts. Look it wasn’t intimate there was no dinner at her home kind of thing believe you me there was a wall of security around her…it made me appreciate my entire path, my life. It gave me giggles almost seeing how lucky I am, how blessed. Oh sure you say how could I not know all of this. I watch how people forgive someone their aberrant behaviors because they are wealthy…I watch us forgive her because she is so powerful and it has always felt wrong. Yet I am going to say I see her better having had a moment on her stage. I watched her closely, I held her hand at one point or two, I felt her almost nervously try to be down, or a wee bit normal. Normal is never going to be for her. She will never be able to go anywhere without it being freakishly uncomfortable. Everywhere she goes someone will be squealing, screaming and having had a bit of that nonsense done to myself nothing is more bizarre than someone yelling at the top of their lungs because they recognize you. Not nice and definitely annoying. She gets no free pass. Nowhere on planet Earth can she escape scrutiny. So I see and get the strange paranoia the inhuman like behavior, the selfishness and the greed and the insecurities…oh my. So what I take away from my sojourn in Chicago is that I have been spared. God bless us…xo

5 comments:

Dwane T. said...

Oprah’s situation is similar to Michael Jackson’s in the trade-off of humanity for super-humanity. Oprah is fortunate in that she had a period where she wasn’t really known and could develop as a normal person. Michael never had a period of normalcy. Also, Michael made his living being a star, Oprah makes hers by facilitating stardom through actual stars and common people. So to do what she does, Oprah has to be part star (artist), part agent (cut throat). I guess people who are in her vicinity, but not her inner circle, get both. Outside of her realm, you can get the person who builds schools and starts careers, or the person who decides on a whim that who she is talking to is more important than who she flew in to talk to next. She is in a situation where she is uncomfortable with who she is because she really doesn’t have any peers with whom to gauge herself, and fearful of who she will be if she stops being who she is. And while that internal struggle is going on, she has people who are trying to keep her up or bring her down for their personal benefit. Like anyone who becomes more a symbol than a person, she has to be at least a little lonely and disconnected all the time

I can’t call you crazy, you’re one of the sanest minds out there. Oprah was the facilitator for this particular gathering, but you were all the stars. It was a reunion… a homecoming. And you were part of a group of amazing women (and men) then who are more amazing now. And am soooo glad you went, and happier that you enjoyed yourself. When you are on The View with Whoopie, Oprah may be a topic of conversation, then again maybe not. But you and Whoopie, and the rest of your friends from that movie, will continue to bring normalcy, spirituality, and common sense to stardom. You will fit your fans (me included) into your life a based on your level of comfort rather than gearing your life around them by seeking or running. And you’ll continue to have peace along with stardom… how cool is that?

Dwane T. said...

Oprah makes her living by facilitating stardom through actual stars and common people. So to do what she does, Oprah has to be part star (artist), part agent (cut throat). I guess people who are in her vicinity, but not her inner circle, get both. Outside of her realm, you can get the person who builds schools and starts careers, or the person who decides on a whim that who she is talking to is more important than who she flew in to talk to next. She is in a situation where she is uncomfortable with who she is because she really doesn’t have any peers with whom to gauge herself, and fearful of who she will be if she stops being who she is. And while that internal struggle is going on, she has people who are trying to keep her up or bring her down for their personal benefit. Like anyone who becomes more a symbol than a person, she has to be at least a little lonely and disconnected all the time.

I can’t call you crazy, you’re one of the sanest minds out there. Oprah was the facilitator for this particular gathering, but you were all the stars. It was a reunion… a homecoming. And you were part of a group of amazing women (and men) then who are more amazing now. And am soooo glad you went, and happier that you enjoyed yourself. When you are on The View with Whoopie, Oprah may be a topic of conversation, then again maybe not. But you and Whoopie, and the rest of your friends from that movie, will continue to bring normalcy, spirituality, and common sense to stardom. You will fit your fans (me included) into your life a based on your level of comfort rather than gearing your life around them by seeking or running. And you’ll continue to have peace along with stardom… how cool is that?

Dwane T. said...

Sorry about the double post.

NC17 said...

you have to be a strong person to remain sane in that world, where as many others (cobain, diana) have fallen victim to that lifestyle for various reasons, The big O has remained human even when given god like power.

mario said...

Couldn't imag!ne havin no privacy

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