Monday, November 8, 2010
Okay, call me crazy...
Okay call me crazy…no I will call me crazy. CRAZY, I had so much fun at Oprah this week. It was a surprise and a blast to see everyone. Especially Willard and Akosua, oh and honestly Whoopie was wonderful too…must get her details so I can visit her again in NYC. Something monumental occurred to me. Imagine being a normal person with an okay career in broadcast than suddenly thrust upon the world stage and given a platform to reach millions everyday for 25 plus years, it will it has to change you. The influx of energy is enormous and I can’t imagine how difficult it is to get accustomed to the life style change there is no operating manual. It never occurred to me to look at her Oprah this way. I have held her separate from my heart because I felt her creepiness as petty and vile. When I look at my inner judgment toward her I see perfectly that I was all of those things to her as well, in equal parts. Look it wasn’t intimate there was no dinner at her home kind of thing believe you me there was a wall of security around her…it made me appreciate my entire path, my life. It gave me giggles almost seeing how lucky I am, how blessed. Oh sure you say how could I not know all of this. I watch how people forgive someone their aberrant behaviors because they are wealthy…I watch us forgive her because she is so powerful and it has always felt wrong. Yet I am going to say I see her better having had a moment on her stage. I watched her closely, I held her hand at one point or two, I felt her almost nervously try to be down, or a wee bit normal. Normal is never going to be for her. She will never be able to go anywhere without it being freakishly uncomfortable. Everywhere she goes someone will be squealing, screaming and having had a bit of that nonsense done to myself nothing is more bizarre than someone yelling at the top of their lungs because they recognize you. Not nice and definitely annoying. She gets no free pass. Nowhere on planet Earth can she escape scrutiny. So I see and get the strange paranoia the inhuman like behavior, the selfishness and the greed and the insecurities…oh my. So what I take away from my sojourn in Chicago is that I have been spared. God bless us…xo
Posted by Rae Dawn Chong at 7:10 AM