Thanksgiving 2013

Happy Holidays everybody!!! What a year it has been super instructive and at times excruciatingly painful conversely excruciatingly happy go figure. Friend’s lost family member’s (Annie) gutting and I don’t look forward to my turn. I am in the midst of a huge life change. My pilot is in postproduction and I am enjoying the process although it is painful to watch at times I am no longer 20 and it is taking everything I can to muster maturity to see it as if it were not me up there on screen. This is key so I can be useful while we tweak the edit. My budget was almost perfect almost I have to hustle a bit to make sure everyone is paid. Not horrible but some people we paid who committed to us gratis making my number skewed a bit (Ira) no worries…I made it work. Finally social media has as usual saved the day so many cool people I have connected with including my shows producer Sean. What a gift meanwhile I was blessed to also reach out to a NY Times critic whom if my show turns out will maybe give us a few lines of support. Mind you if it is subpar I cannot expect any support from anyone and it will be I to blame. Finally so much to be grateful for I am blessed with that I send blessings to you are your family. Thank you for being there and giving me support including financial support all of my donors will be getting their gifts soon I am gearing up to distributing the signed copies of The Celebrant. It is almost there. Gratitude and love for all…this season. Thank you, thank you so much. xo

Personal Dharma's

I discovered the one reason I was born or took life or decided to land on planet earth. Let me preface this with saying I believe planet earth is a teaching planet on a lower plane of knowledge (war, poverty,cruelty,etc…) it is a useful place to work misunderstandings out with too little damage to the cosmic whole. I have no proof and I am not interested in having to prove this I just find it comforting to me personally because how else can we make sense of inequality? If God is Omni everything , knowing, present, loving, blah, blah, blah then hardship is from a broader perspective a good thing. So I want to think and believe that we choose to come here to learn to have gravity and to suffer as well as taste a glimpse of bliss. So during my walk today it occurred to me why I took life. It occurred to me that my one lesson has been to thrive and prosper without any outside influence. To be self-contained and loving yes, in relationships, yes but not driven by them. If I were to look at my journey from day one all the places where I would lean in and depend on someone have been ripped away by circumstance and karma. I think when I can peacefully accept my Dharma it is less sad and more “huh”…or I get it! Some of us insist on life as a gift and one we earn and I think my beliefs can hold that too but I do suspect for me at least I am here to be autonomous and every day I am reminded of it and on face value it seems harsh but in truth it is liberating. Thanks to family and friends for helping get my lesson…I love you for it.