Friday, September 27, 2013

Unexpected and accepting.

Some of us are driven to succeed so we never feel vulnerable yet feeling vulnerable teaches us about being human and allowing life to carry us.Still when that lesson is digested well it is normal and natural to want to give back. I have felt as if my feet were un fire most of my life then that changed for a long time maybe 17 years or so. Now today my feet feel a little hot and I am eager to be as successful as possible and it is time to carry and I have resisted till now. After the "event" this past summer with all the racial uproar it made me sit back and take stock and ask myself "how was I walking through the world?" "what is going on" I found some unconsciousness in my self, some places where I have been asleep or coasting. Oh I am not saying coasting isn't healing or good, for me it has been a soul balm, a place to find refuge. Still it is important to be responsible and aware of ones gifts and to be generous and comeone people can count on. I have hurt people who were unsure of where I stood and whether I was a good citizen. I am a good citizen I am not perfect but I try to keep my word and be as real and true as possible. I know my social conscious is pointed true north. I am good. Anyway we are about to go into film mode and it is a kin to hiking Mt Everest with oyxgen. Stuff happens and being leader it all falls on me. It was a blessing my summer "thing" one experience I didn't expect or see coming but I was pleased to face myself and what I believe,face the naysayers, the haters, the BS; and come out the other side. In the end we are loved, safe and very much a part of a connected huge family. We are always carried but for me I look forward to being the who carries...with JOY! Oh and if you get a chance check out The StaRmy or Jake Klotze up coming web show Part of the Sync family series, amazing.

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