The pilot season of 2013 has a white problem.

Imagine if all the flowers in the world were devoid of color and the only hue they had was white. A world with only white flowers, when I look at the line up for the upcoming television pilot season I imagine it is like that world of only white flowers. The shows are devoid of diversity and the only pilot that could fall under that label is so stale and there is only one, pity. Then I stop and imagine who it is that is feeding this machine the same old tired dramas and comedies and I see a sea of white faces and mostly male. The system in Hollywood is manned and managed and owned by a sea of white men. Parent companies are owned and operated by a sea of white faces so is it any wonder that our media is white. If you look at the audience at every awards show and it is like the world of flowers a sea of white faces. Only Quentin Tarantino has the balls to be brave and yet is it bravery or just taste, he has good taste. I think Hollywood is afraid and money is the driver and the people who have money who buy stuff are a sea of white faces. I cannot imagine a whiter world and I pray that my time is up before that ever manifests but looking through the lineup of future shows the system is about to produce and the future maybe be white but it isn't bright for those of us of color. We have a Black president and the city where the white house is, happens to be predominantly brown skinned as is most of the world as a matter of fact but on the big and little screen one would never know that we were here, or that the world was diverse and full of a multitude of colors and that these same souls these diverse people accomplish and do things in every capacity imaginable doing everything just as well and just as wholesome and interesting and vital, in fact the real lovely vast world we live in is diverse, like the universe of flowers. What’s wrong with Hollywood and who are they speaking to anyway?

My V day.. wish.

We talk and talk and talk about women’s rights but almost nothing changes globally or if it has it is miniscule. Here is a country like America so many things are still being discussed that should be off the table like abortion. Gang rape is up globally and it isn’t death that is the consequence no the perps are then sequestered and the victim questioned I am appalled how far we haven’t come. Being a women of color my heart is sore from lamenting the ridiculousness of the LACK of equal pay. I am a single mother who struggled and really today have very little to show for all the things I did to raise my son. Had I been compensated in a fair way today would be more comfortable financially. Across the board this is true for all of us our mothers and today our daughters. Equal pay act is essentially as important as equal rights and we must as women help bring our less motivated deeply mistaken sisters who continuously vote against their own and their daughters rights because don’t be fooled we are under siege by the conservatives both men and women who want abortion to be eradicated and don’t think equality in pay essential basically “daddies girls” because only an emotionally stunted women who isn’t in the work force would ever vote against themselves. We may need to strike. We may need to stand down and refuse to do our part to get these bills the Violence against women act , The Lilly Ledbetter act etc passed…finally I will say that although I adore Beyonce I am very tired of seeing the stripper style and I want her to glam it up but maybe put some pants on and I wonder what her hair would be like without the sewed on part? Nothing against tracks and weaves but I feel as if the messaging is weird and counter to the so called empowerment much needed globally is getting a mixed message. It may be time to rethink her look and dance moves…she is a mother now and she needs to think about it more…Madonna is pathologically sexualized and it doesn’t work anymore, it screams desperate! Okay…?

The Celebrant

It has been a busy winter so much to catch up with. I shot a piece I wrote for a crowd funding site which will be up soon I hope. It was fascinating to do in my little town I was able to must up a pretty good crew and director so I am hopeful the material was well served. When the onus is on our shoulders it is a different experience one I think that is healthy and better than being a hired gun. I have been facing my own mortality and career with wonder and clarity in that I have know idea how long I can bare looking at my self on film. It takes great strength to watch one age over the decades without losing ones mind. It is a natural process to grow old but that doesn't make it easy.it is shallow to have any sort of discomfort over ones look and weirdly I don’t most of the time but then occasionally it haunts me and I have to make decisions say for wardrobe and do I go character correct or try to look pretty. Don’t let Hollywood fool you even Meryl wants to look good. Still I will lean toward natural not worry about my “looks” and I will go for real and guess what? It isn't good, I look bad and then woes me I get judged. Oh dear still at 52 I am about to be 52 it is unseemly to be so looks obsessed and it definitely isn't popular in my neck of the woods.In my town we value natural and we value grace and we value normal nothing else is comforting and I love that. This holiday season I was in LA and I felt sad for many lovely women I ran into who were feeling old or unwanted painful. Many were obsessed about fat or being lonely or alone and many weren't having fun. I say move away…get out of tinsel town and find a life surround ones-self with people who are authentic and kind and interesting who actually do something,get out of youth -ville LA. Stat. Soon I will have my link up and I hope some of you donate to the cause so we can spread some love. The Celebrant (my show) is ultimately is about spreading love.