For Christmas...

For Christmas I asked for wholeness, for a sense of peace (inner) and a clear picture of things. That is all I asked for and I received what I asked for. It is easy for me to stray off the path of my life and become distracted by my fantasies of “the grass is greener” variety. Oh sure it is a sign of my continuing need for education “hello?” I know I am a work in progress that will never be finished. Still being distracted and pulled in more than one direction is exhausting and painful. I cried a lot this holiday season both from movies (great tear jerking films) and from life. Back on track, tears are dried and the way is crystal clear. I am ever so happy about that, now as I write this, I am struck by the natural fear that creeps into my heart right when I am comfortable with things “shit happens” and I mean cataclysmic stuff. So if in the next year or so it does (turn for the worse) I will try to maintain balance and equanimity and trust. Hard as it may be to hear I think that life is 50% bliss and 50% misery. I am sure of this. So expect great amazing things and know the other is(just as) possible. Okay not meaning to be vague but this is a public forum and I am out there already more than the average person and truthfully you don’t need details of my life…I don’t think. Not yet anyway. Soon I am taking a big step and it is life altering and I am nervous and excited and honored by it. When it happens I will let you know till then…I hope 2011 is shaping up and to be more of the good stuff, gentler, prosperous and full of love.