Pame

We ar emaking a movie in april; Here is an article that is out today if you are interested and want to support us take a look; http://m.seacoastonline.com/apps/pbcs.dll/article?aid=%2F20140106%2FNEWS%2F401060317&template=wapart

Star

You are made up of the exact same substance as actual celestial stars. The very fact that you said yes to living is a blessing and if this life is turning out to be an adventure with all sorts of challenges than you are super special and capable of solving the mysteries. YOU....said YES! You would not have it any other way and because we are in charge it is up to us to delight in it and to be excited about what is coming next. This is not to discount where you are or have been it is to acknowledge what a magnificient job you are doing. No matter how grey the skies or bleak the prognosis. This is an adventure made custom for YOU. In fact so much so that we only get a true sense of our own experience, everything we see and feel and know is a reflection of where we are. Fancy that? Enjoy all of it and say yes to all of it and watch the heavens fall in line to uplift and support you. Nothing but love even when there seems to be nothing, it is LOVE allowing us to get out of our way and prosper. Happy New Year STAR!

Thanksgiving 2013

Happy Holidays everybody!!! What a year it has been super instructive and at times excruciatingly painful conversely excruciatingly happy go figure. Friend’s lost family member’s (Annie) gutting and I don’t look forward to my turn. I am in the midst of a huge life change. My pilot is in postproduction and I am enjoying the process although it is painful to watch at times I am no longer 20 and it is taking everything I can to muster maturity to see it as if it were not me up there on screen. This is key so I can be useful while we tweak the edit. My budget was almost perfect almost I have to hustle a bit to make sure everyone is paid. Not horrible but some people we paid who committed to us gratis making my number skewed a bit (Ira) no worries…I made it work. Finally social media has as usual saved the day so many cool people I have connected with including my shows producer Sean. What a gift meanwhile I was blessed to also reach out to a NY Times critic whom if my show turns out will maybe give us a few lines of support. Mind you if it is subpar I cannot expect any support from anyone and it will be I to blame. Finally so much to be grateful for I am blessed with that I send blessings to you are your family. Thank you for being there and giving me support including financial support all of my donors will be getting their gifts soon I am gearing up to distributing the signed copies of The Celebrant. It is almost there. Gratitude and love for all…this season. Thank you, thank you so much. xo

Personal Dharma's

I discovered the one reason I was born or took life or decided to land on planet earth. Let me preface this with saying I believe planet earth is a teaching planet on a lower plane of knowledge (war, poverty,cruelty,etc…) it is a useful place to work misunderstandings out with too little damage to the cosmic whole. I have no proof and I am not interested in having to prove this I just find it comforting to me personally because how else can we make sense of inequality? If God is Omni everything , knowing, present, loving, blah, blah, blah then hardship is from a broader perspective a good thing. So I want to think and believe that we choose to come here to learn to have gravity and to suffer as well as taste a glimpse of bliss. So during my walk today it occurred to me why I took life. It occurred to me that my one lesson has been to thrive and prosper without any outside influence. To be self-contained and loving yes, in relationships, yes but not driven by them. If I were to look at my journey from day one all the places where I would lean in and depend on someone have been ripped away by circumstance and karma. I think when I can peacefully accept my Dharma it is less sad and more “huh”…or I get it! Some of us insist on life as a gift and one we earn and I think my beliefs can hold that too but I do suspect for me at least I am here to be autonomous and every day I am reminded of it and on face value it seems harsh but in truth it is liberating. Thanks to family and friends for helping get my lesson…I love you for it.

Unexpected and accepting.

Some of us are driven to succeed so we never feel vulnerable yet feeling vulnerable teaches us about being human and allowing life to carry us.Still when that lesson is digested well it is normal and natural to want to give back. I have felt as if my feet were un fire most of my life then that changed for a long time maybe 17 years or so. Now today my feet feel a little hot and I am eager to be as successful as possible and it is time to carry and I have resisted till now. After the "event" this past summer with all the racial uproar it made me sit back and take stock and ask myself "how was I walking through the world?" "what is going on" I found some unconsciousness in my self, some places where I have been asleep or coasting. Oh I am not saying coasting isn't healing or good, for me it has been a soul balm, a place to find refuge. Still it is important to be responsible and aware of ones gifts and to be generous and comeone people can count on. I have hurt people who were unsure of where I stood and whether I was a good citizen. I am a good citizen I am not perfect but I try to keep my word and be as real and true as possible. I know my social conscious is pointed true north. I am good. Anyway we are about to go into film mode and it is a kin to hiking Mt Everest with oyxgen. Stuff happens and being leader it all falls on me. It was a blessing my summer "thing" one experience I didn't expect or see coming but I was pleased to face myself and what I believe,face the naysayers, the haters, the BS; and come out the other side. In the end we are loved, safe and very much a part of a connected huge family. We are always carried but for me I look forward to being the who carries...with JOY! Oh and if you get a chance check out The StaRmy or Jake Klotze up coming web show Part of the Sync family series, amazing. http://www.buzzfeed.com/daves4/the-cutest-facts-of-all-time?s=mobile

The Celebrant

One last push before shooting I had so many inquiries about donations so here it is...people who want to be a part of us!!!

An Ephipany

Meditate and

listen to the inner stillness and recharge and commune with a part of the self that is wiser and connected to the great cosmic power source God. That was the directive this morning upon getting up. I did as I was told and lo and behold it immediately helped me and things begun to unfold. The first of many thoughts came to me about politics in show business some would call it brown nosing. Now I have been raised a rebel and if I had listened to the experts nothing in my life and career would have been nearly as exciting in fact there would be no career . They said it could never be done. Now I am at the brink of more "no ways' and I have that same kind of resistance but not the energy of youth. SoI sit and meditate and hold it up to divine force. I cannot do a show about a spiritual person who doesn't use spirit to guide her? Right, so it is not a shock that in order to pull this off I need to be a CELEBRANT to myself. Yesterday I read a beautiful post sent to me from a complete stranger about my recent ordeal and he said to relax and some other simple kind words. The thing that struck me was the simplicity. This one note felt seismic in its impact. Thank you man who is handsome and asked me to dinner. I am happily married and I cannot accept your lovely invite but I do friend you in the spiritual sense and I appreciate your attention. It also occurred to me as all things do after we do them that everything can be turned around...inward back to us. Oh I know every single one of you reading this already is fluent in the "Turn arounds "but I marvel in how true they are. a turn around is a tool coined by Byron katie where we turn every belief back around and make it true for ourselves. So I recently criticized someone for being a brown noser but I could use a bit of that myself. In fact it is being politically astute. When life begins by being rebellious it is often hard to change course and become more delicate. I am the daughter of a club owner who bounced...so delicate was not the first go to response it was punch now ask later or better yet "RUN"...Anyway be still and know isn't just a platitude it may save our lives.